(;FF[4]
CA[UTF-8]
GM[1]
DT[2025-02-22]
PC[OGS: https://online-go.com/game/72648394]
GN[Friendly Match]
PB[csu.imamoglu]
PW[SgtSunshine]
BR[19k]
WR[15k]
TM[259200]OT[86400 fischer]
RE[W+0.5]
SZ[19]
KM[0.5]
RU[Japanese]
HA[3]
AB[pp][pd][dp]
C[SgtSunshine: onegai shimasu :)
csu.imamoglu: yoroshiku :) 
]
;W[dc]
C[SgtSunshine: onegai shimasu :)
csu.imamoglu: yoroshiku :) 
]
(;B[dd]
(;W[ec]
(;B[ed]
(;W[fc]
(;B[hc]
(;W[fd]
(;B[fe]
(;W[ee]
(;B[de]
(;W[ef]
(;B[df]
(;W[eg]
(;B[ff]
(;W[dg]
(;B[cg]
(;W[fg]
(;B[ge]
(;W[hd]
(;B[gd]
(;W[cc]
(;B[cd]
(;W[ch]
(;B[bg]
(;W[bh]
(;B[bc]
(;W[be]
(;B[bd]
(;W[bb]
C[SgtSunshine: I really messed that up
csu.imamoglu: we have time :) 
]
(;B[eh]
(;W[dh]
C[SgtSunshine: this is true
SgtSunshine: anyway, I think I was being a bit pessimistic. 
csu.imamoglu: pessimism can detach us from reality, as it did in this case. sometimes it brings us closer
]
(;B[gg]
(;W[bf]
C[SgtSunshine: you know what an optimist is?
csu.imamoglu: I don't know, I'm not an optimist. but sometimes I'm a pessimist ^^
]
(;B[cf]
(;W[ag]
C[SgtSunshine: an optimist is just a pessimist with no experience :)
SgtSunshine: this happens to me a lot playing black in a handicap game. I get into a fight early on, lose it, and I'm on the back foot for the rest of the game. sometimes it's me starting the fight, sometimes my opponent provokes it. 
csu.imamoglu: I agree with what you said about optimism :) 
csu.imamoglu: I try to be realistic. sometimes, pessimism can be a big part of realism. but I've also seen that it can distance me from reality at times
csu.imamoglu: your relationship with the black stones and your awareness of it are interesting—in a good way. :)
]
(;B[ei]
(;W[gc]
C[SgtSunshine: Reinhold Messner said he didn't climb mountains to stand on summits, but to learn  about himself. Go is like that too, but I guess any activity can be, as long as you're sufficiently into it.
csu.imamoglu: yes, you're right, how beautiful. :) it reminded me of Basho, the haiku poet. Even when he was ill, he traveled from mountain to mountain, writing haiku
csu.imamoglu: his goal wasn't to reach a specific place 
]
(;B[he]
(;W[id]
(;B[cj]
(;W[hg]
(;B[gh]
(;W[fh]
(;B[fi]
(;W[ac]
(;B[ic]
(;W[ie]
(;B[gf]
(;W[gi]
(;B[hi]
(;W[gj]
(;B[hh]
(;W[ig]
(;B[ad]
(;W[ab]
(;B[jd]
(;W[je]
(;B[kd]
(;W[ij]
(;B[hj]
(;W[gk]
(;B[ih]
(;W[jh]
(;B[if]
(;W[jf]
(;B[hk]
(;W[dj]
(;B[kg]
(;W[jg]
(;B[ik]
(;W[jj]
(;B[ek]
(;W[ej]
(;B[kk]
(;W[jk]
C[SgtSunshine: interesting fight. I kind of wish I hadn't got in it, but there's no way to tenuki, I let my stones get heavy :(
csu.imamoglu: I think I won't be able to achieve a good outcome in this area for myself
csu.imamoglu: :')
]
(;B[jl]
(;W[kj]
C[SgtSunshine: I doubt I'll be able to kill the group in the centre, but it's a perfect opportunity to work on reining in my bloodlust. besides, there's bigger places to play. the question is when it's safe to tenuki.
csu.imamoglu: that's a good question :) 
]
(;B[lk]
(;W[hf]
(;B[lj]
(;W[kh]
(;B[lg]
(;W[lh]
(;B[mh]
(;W[mg]
C[SgtSunshine: this is turning into a bit of a knife fight :)
SgtSunshine: qq
]
(;B[mf]
C[csu.imamoglu: :) yep
]
(;W[ng]
(;B[lf]
(;W[mi]
C[SgtSunshine: looks like I get to live, but you're looking strong in the north. 
]
(;B[gl]
(;W[fj]
(;B[pj]
(;W[nh]
C[SgtSunshine: cunning...
csu.imamoglu: but obvious
]
(;B[li]
(;W[ki]
C[SgtSunshine: I've missed more obvious things than that :)
csu.imamoglu: :)  me too 
]
(;B[nj]
(;W[nf]
(;B[ne]
(;W[le]
(;B[ld]
(;W[me]
(;B[dk]
(;W[di]
(;B[fk]
(;W[fl]
(;B[fm]
(;W[hl]
C[SgtSunshine: killing the centre group would make about 28 points I think, but there's so much empty space on the board that makes me think I should be playing there instead. 
SgtSunshine: especially since there's no guarantee of killing it anyway. 
SgtSunshine: it's a major weakness in my game that I get caught up trying to kill a group just for the sake of it, instead of considering what the best move might be.
SgtSunshine: also, you should be deeply suspicious of a stone played in a place it can't live. my philosophy tutor, who was Greek Cypriot, used to say that if you shake hands with a Greek, you should count your fingers afterwards :)
SgtSunshine: anyway, if you kill the white stone, the centre group dies,  if you don't, then the chase continues and the stones on the left are under pressure. 
SgtSunshine: interesting how having the advantage means you can make your opponents best option for survival, an opportunity for profit.  
SgtSunshine: human society under capitalism, writ large on the gowan. every political activist should play Go...
SgtSunshine: hope this doesn't sound condescending.  it's not meant that way. sometimes a thought pops into my head and I lack the self-control to keep it there.
SgtSunshine: also gowan =goban - I hate autocorrect. 
csu.imamoglu: sometimes a stone might try to save a position where it cannot live, outside of an attack plan ^^  it didn’t sound condescending. I think everyone should play Go.  but I’ve noticed something—I struggle to maintain focus in these long games. I’ve realized that I’m better in fast-paced games. I wonder why that is. :)
]
(;B[il]
(;W[gm]
C[SgtSunshine: with me it's because I forget what my plan was between moves, and I don't take any longer to think in a correspondence game than a live one.
csu.imamoglu: me too!
csu.imamoglu: Sorry, I can't check my phone or the game much. Things are a bit chaotic in my country, and I don't have time because I'm following the events.
]
(;B[el]
(;W[gl]
C[SgtSunshine: that sounds ominous
SgtSunshine: hope you're safe
csu.imamoglu: yes, thank you. maybe something will be alright. I hope 
]
(;B[fn]
(;W[dn]
(;B[en]
(;W[cl]
(;B[ck]
(;W[do]
(;B[eo]
(;W[dm]
(;B[em]
(;W[ep]
(;B[eq]
(;W[fp]
(;B[cp]
(;W[bl]
(;B[gp]
(;W[fq]
(;B[er]
(;W[fr]
(;B[co]
(;W[bk]
(;B[bj]
(;W[bi]
(;B[aj]
(;W[bn]
(;B[cn]
(;W[bo]
(;B[cm]
(;W[dl]
(;B[bm]
(;W[fo]
C[SgtSunshine: nice
]
(;B[go]
C[csu.imamoglu: thank you
]
(;W[gn]
C[SgtSunshine: if I disappear in the next day or so, it will be because I can't credit my phone
csu.imamoglu: I will wait  :)
]
(;B[al]
(;W[hr]
C[SgtSunshine: looks like I might be OK. 
csu.imamoglu: nice!
csu.imamoglu: how are you
csu.imamoglu: in these days
]
(;B[hp]
(;W[in]
C[SgtSunshine: I'm safe enough in the UK, for now, but bad things are coming it seems.
csu.imamoglu: I'm worried... what kind of things?
]
(;B[jp]
(;W[kn]
C[SgtSunshine: well there's a  crazy guy in charge of the world's largest military. I can't imagine that ending well. the far right is on the rise all over Europe. it's not like we don't know where this goes. 
csu.imamoglu: you're right, the same issue exists here too—strange things have been happening for the past two weeks. people are angry and me too. what really frustrates me is that while we’re busy dealing with the actions of these psychotic men, we can’t focus on truly important issues like global warming.
]
(;B[iq]
(;W[es]
C[SgtSunshine: yeah. when I was 15, this was the stuff of dystopian fiction.
csu.imamoglu: yes... we must not forget to create–discover, protect, and live our own ways of being
]
(;B[dr]
(;W[hq]
(;B[ir]
(;W[gq]
(;B[ds]
(;W[mj]
C[SgtSunshine: at least in times like these it's easier not to take the future for granted
csu.imamoglu: :)
]
(;B[mk]
(;W[nk]
(;B[nl]
(;W[ml]
(;B[ll]
(;W[km]
C[SgtSunshine: good move, but my playing is rather uninspired :(
csu.imamoglu: don't be sad please.  we're going through a tiring time — maybe it's just hard to focus. and our game isn't over yet :)
]
(;B[kl]
(;W[ok]
C[SgtSunshine: I'm not losing sleep over it, but my brain is inconsistent. some days I amaze myself and others I make my hand sore from slapping my forehead :)
csu.imamoglu: like me :) 
csu.imamoglu: I'm trying to stay away from the news a bit.
csu.imamoglu: feeling tired
]
(;B[oj]
(;W[mm]
C[SgtSunshine: yeah. it's not like we don't know where this is going.
csu.imamoglu: yes
]
(;B[ol]
(;W[qm]
(;B[pl]
(;W[rp]
(;B[pm]
(;W[qn]
(;B[pn]
(;W[qo]
(;B[qp]
(;W[rq]
(;B[lm]
(;W[mn]
(;B[ln]
(;W[mo]
(;B[lo]
(;W[mp]
(;B[mq]
(;W[nq]
(;B[lq]
(;W[np]
C[SgtSunshine: Run Forrest, run!
SgtSunshine: obvs I'm playing forrest...
csu.imamoglu: :)
csu.imamoglu: I'm sorry I kept you waiting
vishmora: :)
vishmora: sorry for you have waited to much
]
(;B[oq]
C[SgtSunshine: no worries 
]
(;W[nr]
(;B[mr]
(;W[po]
(;B[oo]
(;W[op]
(;B[or]
(;W[pq]
(;B[im]
(;W[nc]
(;B[nd]
(;W[md]
(;B[mc]
(;W[kf]
(;B[oc]
(;W[lc]
(;B[nb]
(;W[mb]
(;B[nc]
(;W[lb]
(;B[jc]
(;W[hb]
(;B[kb]
(;W[qg]
(;B[oh]
(;W[og]
(;B[ph]
(;W[pg]
(;B[qh]
(;W[jb]
(;B[ib]
(;W[gb]
(;B[ia]
(;W[ka]
(;B[ja]
(;W[ha]
C[SgtSunshine: this doesn't end well for me...
csu.imamoglu: but you always play good
]
(;B[la]
(;W[rd]
C[SgtSunshine: wish that was true :)
csu.imamoglu: it is true :) 
]
(;B[qd]
(;W[qe]
(;B[pe]
(;W[rf]
(;B[rh]
(;W[rk]
(;B[ql]
(;W[rl]
(;B[qk]
(;W[rc]
(;B[qc]
(;W[qb]
(;B[pb]
(;W[rb]
(;B[ni]
(;W[mh]
(;B[rj]
(;W[sm]
(;B[jn]
(;W[on]
(;B[ko]
(;W[pf]
(;B[oe]
(;W[ms]
(;B[ls]
(;W[ns]
(;B[lp]
(;W[ho]
(;B[ip]
(;W[ae]
(;B[io]
(;W[hn]
(;B[fs]
(;W[gs]
C[SgtSunshine: that group is dead anyway, barring a miracle. on the other hand a ko fight might be useful.
SgtSunshine: but there obviously won't be a ko fight. what was I thinking?
]
(;B[is]
(;W[rg]
C[csu.imamoglu: I just saw what you wrote — I think you wrote it in the previous move. I'm sorry. and I kept you waiting.
csu.imamoglu: how are you?
]
(;B[hs]
(;W[es]
C[SgtSunshine: I'm good. you? 
csu.imamoglu: me too. better now
]
(;B[bp]
(;W[ii]
(;B[fs]
(;W[om]
(;B[pk]
(;W[nm]
(;B[sk]
(;W[si]
C[SgtSunshine: that might be the first decent move I've played this game :)
]
(;B[ri]
C[csu.imamoglu: ^^
]
(;W[sh]
(;B[sj]
(;W[sg]
(;B[sl]
(;W[rm]
(;B[ma]
(;W[pa]
(;B[oa]
(;W[qa]
(;B[gr]
(;W[no]
C[SgtSunshine: I think you might have this. counting isn't a strength of mine.
csu.imamoglu: I think I'm a bad player
]
(;B[ai]
(;W[ce]
C[SgtSunshine: yeah. me too. I doubt a Dan player could tell us apart
csu.imamoglu: :D 
]
(;B[ak]
(;W[ke]
C[SgtSunshine: I think you've won.
csu.imamoglu: I think you have. we will see
]
(;B[jm]
(;W[ah]
C[SgtSunshine: counting is a major weakness of mine. but I think it's you by about five stones
csu.imamoglu: When I calculate, I see an outcome where you win.
]
(;B[kc]
(;W[qq]
C[SgtSunshine: well we're about to find out.
]
(;B[ci]
(;W[]
(;B[]
C[SgtSunshine: well played.
csu.imamoglu: good game 
csu.imamoglu: wp
csu.imamoglu: :) 
SgtSunshine: it was.
]
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